justrun-.

last day of sch

past few days have been terrible cos for some reason or other i've been feeling so drained. drained to the point where you just want to disappear cos with every breath you take you feel like you're destroying yourself.

muscles are still not recovering. i never used to take this long to recover. my body's become some pile of trash. so much for my marvellous training plan. flushed down the drain when i decided i didn't care anymore. hoping that talking to jiaolian will help... -crosses fingers. can't rmb the last time i felt this unmotivated about training.

been reading "nineteen minutes" by jodi picoult. my first book authored by her. not sure if the reason i've been getting nightmares lately is the book. not so much nightmares as... windows into my subconscious mind. perhaps i've blocking too many of the thoughts out that now it's all coming back to me like a memory long forgotten. really seems that way...

last official day of school today. year 1 school that is. CT session was fun. haha. our class is incredibly funny. going to miss the teachers who won't be moving up with us. not really looking forward to next year. too caught up trying to accept the present at the moment.

ah crap i really feel like crap. i am hoping it's just overtraining symptoms resulting from last wk's crazy trng. i just let myself move back 10steps since i practically ponned all my planned trng sessions this wk. very unlike me. not future to work towards = no motivation.

i should really get started on school work soon. hoping that holidays will help to clear everything up :(

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [16:25]

and took [20071026] strides

it's the passion that drives you